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Your Gaze

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What did you emit through your eyes? Were you asking me to wait? Or it was a final good bye? I saw the hope in those citrine eyes, expecting me to speak up. Maybe I'll ask you to stay; And rest everyone should leave. It feels crowded, isn't it?  This moment was meant to be ours. But no, I know that's me overthinking and maybe over estimating as usual. I saw the fear in those eyes, As if we will not meet again. There's no second chance for us, I know you will be missing tomorrow from my life. But today, I don't have the audacity to hold you, to be your savior. Or maybe you don't even want to be saved. But then there's another possibility, That you said nothing at all. Those eyes are just too pure. And I was looking for a finite end in that infinity pool. What appeared to be shallow to others, was too deep to explore. But you know what made this rendezvous beautiful? Its perplexities! Because...

Pause Button!

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Can I hit the pause button; And say what I have to say. Walk across the line  to watch the view from there, Listen to what they are speaking, And then let their noise fade. Enter the void I just created And play with my thoughts. If only I hit the pause button. Wish I could step out of these life dimensions And observe the ordinates I am placed on. Contemplate on current situation and step back to the square where I chose you. The choice, consequences of which felt right then. Traverse through time dimension and choose plan B this time, and evaluate consequences again, Live that plan to feel my judgement. If only I hit that pause button. I can tell her life is not what she saw, What you see is just your view, There's more to it. Get rid of your anxiety, step out; Enter this void with no gravity, Watch through Kaleidoscope what life is like And stop feeling what you are feeling. So just hit that pause button when yo...

Death- A Triumph

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It is always a pleasure to revisit old novels by our favorite author, with fragrance of old yellow pages, memories recalling emotions of reading it for first time with Oxford dictionary and now reading it again with some experience gained. I reached the page which changed my perspective on ‘Death’. What emotion does this word evokes in you? Anxiety, Terror, Sorrow or Peace? Paulo Coelho has written in his international best seller book- The Pilgrimage- ‘ Still, being fragile creatures, humans always try to hide from themselves the certainty that they will die. They do not see that it is death itself that motivates them to do the best things in their lives. They are afraid to step into the dark, afraid of the unknown, and their only way of conquering fear is to ignore the fact that their days are numbered. They do not see that with awareness of death, they would be able to even more daring, to go much further in their daily conquests, because then they would have not...

Five of Swords

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                                                                                                          Photograph by: Arpita Pal Best part of reading tarot cards is to depict someone’s personality whilst mind-body-soul spread reading. It becomes more interesting when someone’s mind or soul is represented by minor arcana card- ‘the five of swords’. Based on my reading experience, I get 3 out 5 persons having ‘five of swords’ traits. The picture portraying this card is self-explanatory, a man smiling at his opponents who have accepted their defeat. His smile is a showcase of his pride to win not a physical but mental battle. Yes, we are talking about his victory over an argument. He seems to be satisfied b...

'Slut'- Yes I am

This incident took place few mins back, missed my shuttle from Kurla station as I was late hence I had to take auto to my office. Let's not mention about challenges faced as auto rickshaw driver doesn't agree for solo trip from Kurla to BKC and you are forced to take shared one. So I shared my rickshaw with two men, one was young who decently sat inside and in the middle was an old man around 55 years old who was going to One BKC. As I had to get down at Citibank I preferred taking left most seat. This old man who was high on his testosterone made me uncomfortable by his body language and stares.He even touched my thighs with his fingers and tried to act if it happened by mistake. I already asked him to sit properly and give me some space, but little did I know I am talking to an ill mannered man for whom a woman is source of his pleasure. After getting down I asked driver to hold on for a minute and asked that man to go home and give same looks to his daughter and sister a...

Sacred Love

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I am on my way to your palace, already heard about your charisma from your lovers. I am fascinated by their love and trust in you, so I have decided to witness your beauty. And there I see you! When I looked into your eyes, I lost my heart but my soul found it's final destination. I don't have to embellish this love with my words, you know it all. I don't have to rationalize my feelings, you don't expect me to be pragmatic. You make me feel so innocent, your eyes are asking me to live in this moment, to enjoy the surprises and to accept all the viciss itudes of fortune. With you , love is no more a feeling, but an emotion which has become my confidence, it is realization of your existence, it is satisfaction I feel within. With you I feel complete! On your Birthday eve, a small gift from your devotee. Happy Birthday Kaanha! And Happy Janmashtami to all!                   ...

Acceptance

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                                                                                                                           Photo by- Arpita Pal Lecrae quoted- ‘ If you live for people’s acceptance, you will die from their rejection ’. In the midst of pleasing people, we forget the most vital approval, ‘the self-approval’. Everyone’s opinion has become so important but our own. Where did we leave ourselves? Why are we so scared to take a stand? We manipulate our statements to make people comfortable. This can be out of love, respect or mere social convention. But is your behavior being reciprocated by them? We always have answers to this question but we avoid the truth...